so there are days when my mind gets super bogged down with "life-what-am-i-doing-nonsense". it's been bogged down the past few days.
for us right brainers, that translates into coming up with some kind of plan.

my five year plan:

1. toil away working in fayetteville, trying to save monies and pay off debt.
2. apply & secure grant for children's book collaboration with mr. stamey through scwbi, while also working and saving monies and paying off debt.
3. apply & secure grant for fayetteville's literary magazine through the arts council, while also working and saving monies and paying off debt.
4. study like mad and take gre and do fantasmic & apply for grad school in boston (pray they let me in and ignore my crap gpa from college-- more like umass and less like harvard), for something related to publishing/writing, while also working and saving monies and paying off debt.
5. move to boston to enroll in school. hopefully have a job when i move, spend saved monies and try to avoid accruing more debt.

it's just a rough estimate. trying to be a bit realistic, here.

really rough. i'm up for suggestions.

the fortunate part of this "bogged-downness" thing is that it comes from a brain that is really happy with the "way things are" currently. i'm a simple girl with simple needs. i just moved in with the man i love, my cat and i have been reunited, i get to see my fam on a regular basis-- i just need a few girlfriends. doesn't mean i don't want to look forward, however. in addition, i think my "insecurities" stem from thinking myself capable-- being good at quite a lot of things. problem is i don't think myself excellent at any of them.


bah.